why is it so hard for me to write?
this is how it goes every single day: I open the word document, type in a few words, then switch tabs to twitter. then I go back to the document, look at the words, and switch to twitter again. then I scroll spotify looking for the perfect song, the perfect music to encompass what I want to write about.
I was on the bus today so frustrated by that never-ending loop. in my head I know what happens in the story, I know how the characters look and behave, I know the hurdles the go through, and yet, I can't bring myself to get that on paper. it's not a writer's block, I think, it's worse than that. there's so much pressure from myself and the outside to create something meaningful and long-lasting, something that is not cringey, or very cliché. and while nobody reads what I write, it's so difficult to shake that pressure off.
what can I do? writing prompts don't help. getting drunk doesn't help. talking to someone about it doesn't seem to help, either. I don't want to always rely on inspiration. they say that it's better to write a few words every day than a lot every once in a while, but it's easier sometimes to just wait for the inspiration to strike than to sit through the frustration. (oh but of course! that's it!)