the first day of spring
this morning it was my turn to go to the office. I took a shower and then made myself some coffee to go, which today was especially sweet. I got on my car and the doorman of my building said to me "happy first day of spring!" as I left my house. I looked up and the day was gray and gloomy, with a thick dark fog hanging over us, though the sun was shining strong behind it. for a first day of spring, it was rather disappointing.
I drive a car that has no bluetooth radio. it's a rather new car, from 2016, that me and my partner bought with a lot of effort last may. it's a chery QQ, chinese car, very comfortable, and has great milage for the price. it has a CD player, which is great because I collect CDs, but I don't have all the records I wished I had. I've lately been obsessing over A Day to Remember, a pop punk/hardcore band from Florida, and I don't have any of their albums (they're super expensive). So my boyfriend found an old USB drive and put some albums in there.
it had been raining the day before and I couldn't see much out of my foggy windows, so I rolled them down. the weather was incredibly warm despite the rain and the fog, so it wasn't uncomfortable at all.
the song All Signs Point to Lauderdale came on. the sound came blasting out of my speakers as the sky began to clear and the sun started to show its face. I hate this town, is so washed up/and all my friends don't give a fuck says ADTR, and I sing my heart out loud. it makes me feel alive, for a second, taking off the goggles of habit and actually feeling genuine excitement for those little moments. a life worth living, a moment worth remembering.
and look, I particularly love this town. I don't relate to that song at all. but there's something about those lyrics, and the punch that song packs, that makes me feel like I'm inside a move. and right there, stuck in traffic in the middle of the highway, I felt like I was. I feel like immortality is found in remembering those little aspects about the life you built, rather than single events. so I guess that's what I'm building right now.
happy first day of spring or fall, wherever you are!